Thrash bands, punk and other bands I like

I do not like thrash (death metal) that glorifies satan or ritual killings, or satanism.  I like bands like Ozzy Osbourne, Iron Maiden, Judas Priest, Metallica, Megadeth, Anthrax and bands like them.  I also like bands that joke about, or simply make fun of satan or satanism.

Punk is not junk.  bands that are violent towards the governement were playing during a time when the government and police were violent and oppressive to poor people.  I like Rancid, Aus Rotten, NoFx, the Ramones, the Sex Pistols, the Vandals, and band like them.  About "Anarchy Burger" from the Vandals, they just joke around.

I understand more than I used to

I now understand that not all ceremonial magicians are evil.  I am just against "grey" magic and "black" magic of any kind.

I apologize to the OTO for my derogatory comments about them.

How I learned to care for the Earth and others

This is how I started to care about this planet and people in general:  When I first joined Wicca, I was a "Wicccan fundamentalist" that hated Christians.  At first, as far as respecting women goes, I was raised by a strong-spirited mother, and a decent hard working father.  This was my foundation, and I was raised Roman Catholic.  I got to be a solitary Wiccan at 19 years of age.  It taught me that there is indeed a female principle to the universe.  By the way, as a teenager in high school, I had a good African American karate instructor (sensei) at a dojo in the San Fernando Valley called CPK.  It taught me good self control.  As far as caring for the planet goes, I saw episodes of a cartoon series called Captian Planet.  Then I was involved in a coven that I choose to keep anonymous.  I left the L.A. area about a year after I joined the coven I was in.  I later on had a kind Native American friend that converted me to the church (protestant).  I watched much of TBN, and saw end-times movies.  They scared the crap out of me.  My experiences with this Native American Christian from the Navajo Nation got me out of the mindset that all Christians were hypocrites (this individual was big-hearted and generous with her time, and even prayed for the rainforests to heal.)  I soon learned to care about Christians, but still had a disdain for ones that were real hypocrites. (Jesus often got in arguments with the hypocrite Pharisees of His).  I have still a disdain for Crowley students and black magicians of all kinds, as well as the people in the Craft community that call Christians "Xtian".  I got involved later on as a solitary Wiccan and do feel some churches and the coven I was in hurt me to a degree.  I have been to Rainbow gatherings, as well as to Grateful Dead shows in the past too.  I always joke about Alister Crowley getting ripped to shreds by demons he conjured backfiring on him. (someone was probably smoking a cigar or cigarette. (demons hate tobacco). 

I at least care...

I at least care about the Earth.  I get very anry at treated like sh*it.  I care about only non hypocrites.  I hate prestentious religious people of all kinds, including Wiccans.  I cannot stand anton levey or her daughter, zeena lavey.  They should not get away with jack sh*t.  I look up to Scott Cuningham, who says only to use magic if you have a real need for it.

What I do not like

Three Things that I just cannot stand is hypocrisy, legalism and perfectionism.  Not all of us have the faith to be Christians, and I beleive that Wiccans should not have any ill will against Christians.  I used to be slightly legalistic when I was a Christian.  I do not hate Pastor Hagee as a person, but I have heard him make jokes about people going to hell.  I try to love my enemies and I do not practice negative magic.  I do know a spell that causes any harm directed at me to backfire on people. It simply looks like a mirror image (that one that looks like an X-wing fighter).  No one on earth is perfect and we are all human.  None of us are dieties, not even the high priest or high priestess of one's coven.  Anyone who thinks this is on a real power trip.  Some simply do not want to be "peons"

Who I am NOT

Listen here!  I am not Jesus Christ!  I am just a Wiccan who searches the Internet and is a smart dude.

What I think I am at times

First of, I am manic-depressive (bipolar).  I have schizoaffective disorder which is a combination of paranoia, schizophernia and a mood disorder. That is my official diagnosis.  Sometimes I think I am God, at times I think I am Chewbacca.  At times, I have thought I was Anakin Skywalker (Darth Vader)  There are times I think I am the devil.  I am not violent, and am not a harm to others or myself.  I do have quite a temper, but my bark is worse than my bite.  I know Wiccans do not believe that the devil exists, and I am a solitary Wiccan.

how I was not initiated

In the early 1990's, I studied with a coven called HOMECOMMING COVEN.  I was with them for a year.  I hear voices now on the mental plane saying I was "secretly initiated" in the high priestess' bedroom.  Later on, the high priest threw me out of the group.  When I recently revealed their identities in the Craft,  my life went to shit.  I was never initiated by that coven, so the rule of revealing the names of these two witches did not apply to me, but my magic tools still turned against me.  This is bogus.  I am now a solitary Wiccan

(REM) I lost my religion

This is sad, but glad too.  Though I love deity-forms very much, it is time for me to leave them.  Whether they are male or female, I mean no animosity or disrespect.

I am the Law - Anthrax

I am the Law - from Anthrax

I am mentally ill

I am manic depressive, schizopherenic and have some paranoia.  I have delusions of granduer (Thinking that I am Hercules --- the famous Greek hero from the TV series) I get depressed most of the time, and even hear voices.

What I am

I am not anti-Christian.  I really can't be a Christian.  Though I respect Jesus, I am a Wiccan.  I respect Jesus as a teacher and a social activist.  He spoke against the rich lording it over the poor and against religious hypocrisy.  All religions have their hypocrites.  Even Wiccans and Pagans.

I was never initiated

All I ever was was a dedicated Wiccan ala Scott Cunningham - I was not initiated into the CRaft.  A person needs to ask for an initiation.  I was not so much as wiccaned, or dedicated in a coven.  I am a self-dedicated Wiccan with much anger.

I choose Jesus

Originally, I got saved about 5 years ago.  I just rededicated my life to the Lord today.  I do pray for some Wiccan friends that I knew for their salvation.  The woman that got me saved told me that Jesus loves everyone.  Jesus is Lord.

Who I am... Who I am not

All I know is that I am Martin, and my Wiccan circle name is Riverwind.  Though my looks kind of decieve you Christians much, though I resemble a man who walked the earth 2,000 years ago, I AM NOT JESUS CHRIST.  Nor am I a prophet.  All I am is a political activist (local Portland, Oregon politics, particularly talking about the police scandals here in town and national politics including the war in Afghanistan and the interventions in Latin America.

A little about what I like - I like all kinds of music, including Christian music, Wiccan/Pagan music, punk, grunge, heavy metal, and even some rap music.  I know how to build computers (desktops).

My latest dream I had

Witches get dreams from the Goddess and God and I had a dream that I was being prosecuted for the "Bad Brains" incident.  Mr. pResident Obama, why the hell are you prosecuting a mental patient.  I am sure you could get an investigation going to verify my mental status.  Listen here, you dirty, rat - I am a schizopherenic and have manic depression.  I have been in and out of mental hospitals since 1992.  I have been to Damasch hospital and EOPC many times.  You do not care about the poor, the mentally ill or even this country.  Tre Arrow can probably run rings around you as a president.

Why I was driven into the broomcloset

I was paranoid of Wiccan persecution on part of the Christians.  I was also paranoid of survielience devices.  Who give a crap about my spelling.

I never was Jesus Christ in a past life

I am just a man who cares about freedom (not anarchy - I joke about it and that is it) I just look like Jesus.

Why do I get hacked?

I cause no trouble on the Internet, nor do I know how to hack myself.  What are you idiots afraid of.  I solitary Wiccan hacking a computer for a nuclear war.  Us Wiccans care about the Earth.  We protest for the environment every day, we protest for freedom of religion for all religions.  We even protest for legalization of *CENSORED* (pot).