how I was not initiated

In the early 1990's, I studied with a coven called HOMECOMMING COVEN.  I was with them for a year.  I hear voices now on the mental plane saying I was "secretly initiated" in the high priestess' bedroom.  Later on, the high priest threw me out of the group.  When I recently revealed their identities in the Craft,  my life went to shit.  I was never initiated by that coven, so the rule of revealing the names of these two witches did not apply to me, but my magic tools still turned against me.  This is bogus.  I am now a solitary Wiccan

I was never initiated

All I ever was was a dedicated Wiccan ala Scott Cunningham - I was not initiated into the CRaft.  A person needs to ask for an initiation.  I was not so much as wiccaned, or dedicated in a coven.  I am a self-dedicated Wiccan with much anger.

Why I was driven into the broomcloset

I was paranoid of Wiccan persecution on part of the Christians.  I was also paranoid of survielience devices.  Who give a crap about my spelling.

I never was Jesus Christ in a past life

I am just a man who cares about freedom (not anarchy - I joke about it and that is it) I just look like Jesus.